I'm sure you've been wondering why it's so quiet here at ClickNewz, and whether I ever made it back from vacation - or not. 😛 LOL I did make it back, and I had a wonderful (completely unplugged) 6-day vacation.
I returned a week ago Monday, in good condition even, but things went downhill from there. In fact, I'm not entirely sure where the last 10 days went at all. On my end, it felt like the last week or so crawled by at a snails pace, and disappeared into thin air at the speed of light, all at the same time.
Blame the vacation, the dog days of summer, the idea of being unplugged for that long (given it was my first true unplugging -ever!). Or maybe it's just life... and the typical highs & lows for us manic entrepreneurs. Whatever the case, I took it a step further and iced that cake with pure insanity: I quit smoking.
Yes, I was a smoker. 2+ packs a day for more than 20 years.
I quit on June 28th at 4pm, less than 48 hours before I left on vacation. That may seem crazy, but it seemed like a really good idea to me. And it worked. I knew that getting out of my usual environment and routine would be a great help in kicking the habit, and it was. I've now been smoke-free for 18 straight days.
That looks real pretty on the screen there in black & white: "I've been smoke-free for 18 days". The truth is, it's been pure torture and has accounted for several complete meltdowns. They come and go, with mini-meltdowns and long phases of BLAH in between. I can't sleep, I can hardly eat, and I feel like I'm in some kind of time warp. The other morning it took me 3 hours to get up and ready and out of the house - what normally takes just 45 minutes. I can't figure it out - I did everything the same as I normally do. Time just feels strangely slow at the moment.
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Why in the world would I put myself through this?? (I've been asking myself that every hour -lol) While I have a great life, one many might envy even, I am always in a constant state of growth & improvement.
I'm happier than I've ever been -in the grand scheme of things of course, not necessarily in this particular moment (duh- at this exact moment in time I feel like banging my head against the wall!). But happier or not, I haven't been 100% happy. In fact for most of 2009 I was fairly unhappy, and so I started this year with the intention of making serious changes.
It's much easier to sit around and complain about how things are, or wish things were different, than it is to step out and make real change.
Last year I did a lot of complaining and wishing. But I've learned that the louder that conversation gets in your head, the closer you are to stepping out of your comfort zone and starting the process of real change.
Change is hard. You have to leave your comfort zone -which is a truly nice comfy place, even if things within it are not necessarily positive. (We often lie to ourselves about how things really are, and convince ourselves it's actually fine. We don't even question the lies in our head, we just believe them.)
I miss my comfort zone. 🙁
In the last 6 months I've been changing my diet, started exercising regularly again, have been seeking out a church and other social groups, doubled my income, am finally settling in and making home in my new house, started dating someone seriously after a decade of single life, adopted a Great Dane pup... and finally, quit smoking.
A LOT of uncomfortable change. But it was that last one that did me in.
My whole world feels completely shattered at the moment, much like my poor little iPad. I'm in the process of putting all the pieces of my life back together. This time, the way I want them. Healthy, happy - and balanced.
Balance. That's a tough one. I think everyone struggles with it to some extent. In the process of quitting smoking, I've discovered that I'm obsessive to a fault. The reason I can't just smoke socially, or do anything in moderation really. Also the reason for my success in business, I'm sure. So at the moment I'm putting some serious thought into this (obsessively I'm sure) to figure out a solution. A balance. Between meltdowns, of course. Detox is harsh.
So that's where I am right now. Somewhere between two places, but definitely on the better side of the line. The fact that I published this blog post is proof - it only took me three days to write it... LOL.
Is it worth it? I'm sure it will be. Right now I feel like throwing myself off a bridge, but I'm holding strong and pushing hard to just get through this phase.
Habits and addictions are evil. -so is complacency.
Positive change doesn't come easy. Whether it's quitting smoking, losing weight, creating a successful business, changing your lifestyle, whatever - it's hard work. You can't get the highs without the lows, though. You either make the sacrifice, go all in... or stay happily unhappy.
Onward and upward...
Best,
p.s. Earlier today I ordered the Canon Vixia SF20 mentioned in my last blog post about podcasting. It should arrive on Tuesday (7/21). I figure that will give me something new & fun to focus on, and help me get back on track with the series 🙂
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Geeez, Lynn! This may be your best post ever, and just one more reason I am so freakin proud to call you my friend. See you and your cool peeps tomorrow. 🙂
Lynn,
Don't quit quitting! If you are not eating that is the greatest part of all but make sure the walks get longer and faster. The sleep will come.
You'll always be my heroin smoke free or not.
Lynn,
I didn't expect that post 🙂 Love the candor! You obviously have a great support group here on the site. I am similar issues with caffeine. Chemical dependency is tough. But mind over matter works.
Success really is measured by how one acts in his/her weakest moments. Best of luck to you! I KNOW you can do it.
The insights you provided above are impressive. Continued best wishes on your smoke free life.
Lynn, that is awesome! I've never smoked, so I can't say I know what you're going through other than what I've observed in my friends who have quit. It's incredibly hard, and you should be very proud of yourself. Just don't give in - you don't want to go through the past 18 days again, I'm sure! 🙂
Mega Congrats to you. Hang in there Lynn! It will be a struggle for a while but any thing worth having takes effort.
I love your comment about our comfort zone....so true.
Best of luck to you!
P.S. How do you always know to say the right things when I need to hear them?? Thanks for all your insight and wisdom!
Congrats on the 18 days! I have never smoked but I honestly think it is one of the hardest habits to break, and I admire VERY MUCH people who do quit. I'm really proud of you for sticking with it. And just don't ASK me about sugar, LOL!
Good for you Lynn. Just the fact that your new habit is 18 days old is a great sign that you will succeed. My prayers and thoughts go out to you.
And here I was, thinking it's just me:) Seems like writers even when doing good, feel bad,go figure! Thanks for the party line & I applaud your smokeless willpower...keep-a-going!
Clara
Lynn, I admire you for making all these changes and for having the guts to share it with us. I'm wondering if you know about EFT tapping. While it doesn't make change EASY, it can make it a whole lot easier and help prevent us from sabotaging our growth due to fear of change.
You go girl!
Lynn, Thank you for letting us know all of the stretches and risks yo have been taking lately. I can certainly relate - know I am sending you lots of hugs and comfort zone blasting energy!
😉
Amy
Wow, Lynn - I got tears in my eyes when I read this. It's so brave of you to put your pain right out there for us. 2009 was SUCH a hard year, for so many people. I'm so happy for you as I watch you keep tweaking the personal side of your coin and filling in all the blanks that your "obsession" with your career I'm sure made easier to ignore.
The drug Chantix really helped my parents - and they had tried EVERYTHING before - so...if you feel like you need some extra help...
As I said on Twitter so many loooong days ago - lots of water, naps, and self-love. Massages could be good, too! Don't let anyone underestimate what your body and mind are going through as they both release the old and mop up 20 years of poison. They need all the support they can get.
Imagine your cells happily running around in hazmat suits with shovels and shoving all that stuff in the trash chute - which is flushed with WATER.
Hugs to you AND the kids,
C
I continue to be amazed at how much alike we all truly are. We never know what the person next to us is really going through that day. Stay the course. Time takes time. Thanks for sharing!
From one compulsive to another: hang in there. You may want to look into the LifeWave Glutathione patches. They massively detox the liver. A friend who had smoked cigars but hadn't smoked in years wore the patches for a while. He was in his smoke-free office and smelled smoke. He couldn't figure out where it was coming from but then realized it was coming out of his pores! Here's a link if you want to read about it:http://www.patch4wellness.com/anti-aging-skin-care.html.
BTW, my latest compulsion is turbo solitaire! Nowhere near as intense as what you're are going through now.
I send you lots of good vibes for transforming this. Having gone through many deaths and endings myself, I know it's possible.
Cheers,
Heidi
It's especially impressive that even feeling as you have, you still managed to find not only an appropriate image but one that actually resembles you! 🙂
Complacency IS evil...and tough to crack. No one's in a hurry to jump into their dis-comfort zone, after all.
Hang in there!!
Dan
Hi Lynn,
Great post. I have been a long time follower, but this was one of my favorite posts. Your struggles remind me so much of my own. I even wrote a post about this post. If you get a chance, check it out: http://nolimitsthebook.ning.com/profiles/blogs/the-highs-and-lows-of
Thanks for sharing your struggles and do hang in there. I can promise you it will ALL be worth it.
Sara
Hi Lynn,
Thanks for always being so transparent. I am excited you Choosing Change TODAY and not wait for the tomorrows that don't always come when and how we wish them to arrive. You being so opened is touching more lives then you will ever know. Did you know second hand smoke affects those around you and now will help them too? Have you considered a detox (cleanse, colonic, steam room, etc.) to help clean out the system?
Even though the journey may not be easy right now, overtime you will look back and see the blessing this "new change" has made to your entire being. May you continue to rise above all circumstances and be a bright light to all who come to know you. You are an inspiration to the masses!
Carol
Congrats Lynn,"even your breath" will begin to SMELL sweeter !!!
You haven't 'smoked' for 18 days !!!
Its going to take all of 18 years to clean up the SHIT inside,
IF...you live that loooooong ?
What a DAMN waste, pretty lady....hummmmph !
My reply to that is not even appropriate to publish here. 😛
::snarf::
Congrats Lynn! I quit seven years ago after 30+ years and several times trying. Last time I used the patch and an anti-depressant and made it! Been smoke free ever since. You can do it, with the great mindset you have it can be done and you'll get through it a much better person. Smoking is as close to being a junkie as you can get so be nice to your self as you go. Believe me, the cravings and unconscious triggers will get fewer and won't last as long either and it's get easier each day. Confession - I went through a bag of sunflower seeds every day, just kept my mouth full of those suckers. Good luck and feel free to give me a holler if you need support. Hang tough girl I'm proud of you!
Also good luck with all your life style changes 😉
Take care
Lynn, you are an inspiration as always and definitely a great role model for your kids. My mother quit smoking when her first grandchild was born after 40+ years of chain smoking. Now she can't stand the smell of smoke anywhere and avoids it religiously. We are lucky that we have laws in this country about smoking in public places and restaurants since it should help you, at least a little bit. I just came back from 3 weeks in Europe and felt like I inhaled a pack a day just having my daily cafe creme.
You deserve all the good health, happiness, and prosperity you can obtain. Treat yourself well and I'm sure it will positively impact every other area of your life, even if it takes a while to adjust.
Good luck with the new boyfriend. Hope he treats you well!
-Sharyn
Excellent going Lynn
I agree with Phil the cravings will degrease but they never go away completely – at least for me also an x 40+smoker. Now a day I can actually enjoy the smell of a good sigi especially if it has rum like smell without wanna clime up a wall.
About 2 years ago I decide to get fit again, what a ridicules idea for a 50 year old. Mid life crises??
Anyway 6 sit-ups was my Max. Now I can do 200 in sets of 25. All I’m saying, if I can do it (a professional chough potato) any one can get into this health thing.
“Change is hard. You have to leave your comfort zone” Easy said but if you have you mind set in place it can be done.
Just know this, I know what you are going threw because I am in the same boat - struggling with life changing habits.
"What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger." Whoever said that never quit smoking or went on a diet, huh? Sending good energy and thoughts your way. One day you will look back and say, "I remember when..."
~Cindy 😉
Hi Lynn,
wow, great job. I quit a 2 1/2 pack a day, 40 year habit 7 years ago. ( wow, has it been that long?) I dreaded it for years and for me it was not really a struggle as it turned out. I know you don't want to hear that right now.
Anyway, what I did that helped me was this;
I cleaned everything, walls, windows, computers, clothes, ceiling, etc, etc. I used bleach/pinesol etc. to get all of the smell out of everything.
I spent two days doing that and smoking outside.
then on the third day, I got rid of my cigs and lighters etc., put on the patch and haven't looked back.
Has your sense of smell come back yet? does your food taste better yet?
It will. My sense of smell came back with a vengence. I can't even go down the soap isle at the grocery store because of the smells.
anyway, keep it up, I know you can do it and you will be so much happier from now on.
oh yeah, I'm jealous of whoever this new fella is. He better treat you right.
luck,
robert
Hang in there Lynn. From one ex-smoker (7 years now YAY!) to another, you WILL do this! The temptation to pack it all in and quit is normal at this stage because that takes less effort. But you aren't normal Lynn remember that! 😉 Successful people, achievers and winners live beyond normal.
And enjoy that snail's pace life that you are experiencing right now, maybe there is a reason for that too! 😉 Enjoy those moments of being aware of life.
I don't think I've ever quoted the bible in my life online but this verse comes to mind (James 1:2-4) "Consider it pure joy when you face trials of many kinds, knowing that the testing of your faith develops perseverance, that perseverance once achieved brings you to maturity, complete and not lacking in anything."
Think of this trial/change in your life as development time, character time, perseverance time and enjoy the ride instead of fighting it 😉
Hi Lynn
I'm so glad that you're back. I thought that you had dropped me off your mailing list as I hadn't made any comments on your blog for a little while!! Each week I would go through my emails twice, just in case I had missed yours.
I love and admire your honesty about where your life is right now, and good on you for being brave enough to put it out there for us all to read. You've been a real inspiration to me, as I've been trying so hard to get a new website up and just everything has been going against me, included the income, so to get your positive motivation right now is invaluable.
Would you be willing to write me a Guest Post on my new Blog on this very issue of You Can Do It? I would be very honoured to have you on board. I always use a saying : "Everyday in everyway things are getting better and better". I find that it really works for me. All the very best for a sparkling new you.
Hey Lynn
Congrats on quitting!!! You CAN do it... I have been smoke free for over thirty years now. My wife continued to smoke for fifteen of those years. She quit and we separated about the same time and as far as I know she went back to smoking shortly after we broke up.
Any way, I just wanted to share two things with you:
1. If you can make it through 24 hours than you can do it. It stays in your system for a long time, BUT find other things to do with your hands to take your mind off thinking about it. Focus on other things and make them your habit. Every day is a milestone and staying smoke free is just another 24 hour day away. Remember our senses are regaining their sharpness. In the air we breath, food we eat and our energy levels are more invigorated. We are becoming healthier.
Point #2. The story about the mom of a little girl. The mom smoked and she was an obsessive person about her house and how clean it had to be. The only exception was the ash trays. One day while she was holding her little girl her daughter asked her this question. "Mommy, why do you always smell like an ash tray?" Well! That question changed the way that her mom viewed smoking and from that day on and she never smoked again...
Smoking is an addiction but it can be beaten. Thanks Lynn for joining the smoke free segment of society. I wish you my very best for a successful smoke free and healthy remainder of your life.
We want to love you longer... so, please live longer! Take care of YOU!
Holy hell lady you do put yourself through the fire all at once eh? There's a psychological barrier to quitting smoking. From 2+ packs a day to nothing is gonna take a toll on you but IT WILL pass. Promise.
Just remember you've stayed smoke free for 18 days. Within the next 7 - 14 days you'll be done with detox. Within 6 months your lungs will be busy repairing themselves and going back to their normal colour.
Keep going!
Press forward my friend. Change is a bitch, but the opposite is even worse.
Sending good energy.
As a former smoker, I can honestly say it will get easier. Even though I stopped smoking almost ten years ago, I still struggle with many of the other areas you mention. Especially building an online business. Here's to your quitting smoking and me not giving up on a dream!
Hi,
Setting Captives Free is a great resource when dealing with this type of matter. However, you have to go into with an open mind. The link is http://www.settingcaptivesfree.com/courses/breath-of-life/
Take care,
Brent
Hey, Lynn:
Fight the good fight, woman. Do not give up, smoking is an ugly thing. You can so do it, do it for your two kids. Oh! and for slim, too. lol.
It doesn't matter when you started, the important thing is you've put it (or at least trying) to put it behind you. Say goodbye to it! Bye bye. No more.
Dating? Yes, probably way harder than the smoking thing. lol. Good for you. Keep us posted on that, too.
We're with you all the way...Cheers!
Wow Lynn, you've got a lot of great stuff going on. I've never been a smoker but I've seen several family members struggle to stop. Congrats on taking the step and keep up the good work! And good luck with all the other great stuff that's you've got going on!
Lynn,
Hang in there, you have a lot to feel happy and amazed about. You have gone through a lot of changes in a short period of time and I applaud you. I understand the smoking problem, I am a 10 year, pack a day smoker and I am thinking about quitting this week. Everyday I think i have had enough of this, but haven't made that jump yet. You have managed to accomplish so many other things, you can handle the smoking. Try some lollipops or hard candy.
Good luck, and hopefully right behind you.
Jenn
"Thank Goodness I'm not a smoker. Thank Goodness I'm no longer addicted to nicotine. Thank Goodness I never have to light a cigarette again."
Saying one of these every time I wanted to smoke the first few weeks of quitting made all the difference..along with taking up new activities and changing my diet.
Get rid of that patch at this point if you haven't already. You don't need it anymore, just keep reminding yourself how many days ago you **already** quit smoking. And let others help remind you when you need.
You can do it!
Lynn,
Just keep at it, imagine your body is being reborn...always a painful process...I can imagine lungs getting pink again, clearing the body of all that toxic smoke, and a whole lot of changes in mood and all else.
Three years ago I got out of a comfort zone and lost 110 lbs.. once I got going, it got easier and easier...almost on auto pilot..but I changed my lifestyle, and the weight has partially returned...not all, but too much...time to get back out of comfort zone..
We can all take this ride together, for me also, it's high time to launch a product and get to making money online.. .that's why I know you!
Keep it up, keep cranking away, just realize that every day will get easier, and you're doing the right thing!!
Congrats! Change is always hard but from your candid testimony it does prove that once you decide to change good things will happen.
If we always do the same thing then we will always get the same result. Thanks for the encouraging words.
I heard this poem today…and it made me cry. If you are trying to grow your online income…please don’t neglect your family in the process.
Read this poem. You’ll be glad you did.
Father Forgets. by W. Livingston Larned
Listen, son: I am saying this as you lie asleep, one little paw crumpled under your cheek and the blond curls stickily wet on your damp forehead. I have stolen into your room alone. Just a few minutes ago, as I sat reading my paper in the library, a stifling wave of remorse swept over me. Guiltily I came to your bedside.
There are the things I was thinking, son: I had been cross to you. I scolded you as you were dressing for school because you gave your face merely a dab with a towel. I took you to task for not cleaning your shoes. I called out angrily when you threw some of your things on the floor.
At breakfast I found fault, too. You spilled things. You gulped down your food. You put your elbows on the table. You spread butter too thick on your bread. And as you started off to play and I made for my train, you turned and waved a hand and called, ‘Goodbye, Daddy!’ and I frowned, and said in reply, ‘Hold your shoulders back!’
Then it began all over again in the late afternoon. As I came up the road I spied you, down on your knees, playing marbles. There were holes in your stockings. I humiliated you before your boyfriends by marching you ahead of me to the house. Stockings were expensive – and if you had to buy them you would be more careful! Imagine that, son, from a father!
Do you remember, later, when I was reading in the library, how you came in timidly, with a sort of hurt look in your eyes? When I glanced up over my paper, impatient at the interruption, you hesitated at the door. ‘What is it you want?’ I snapped.You said nothing, but ran across in one tempestuous plunge, and threw your arms around my neck and kissed me, and your small arms tightened with an affection that God had set blooming in your heart and which even neglect could not wither. And then you were gone, pattering up the stairs.
Well, son, it was shortly afterwards that my paper slipped from my hands and a terrible sickening fear came over me. What has habit been doing to me? The habit of finding fault, of reprimanding – this was my reward to you for being a boy. It was not that I did not love you; it was that I expected too much of youth. I was measuring you by the yardstick of my own years.
And there was so much that was good and fine and true in your character. The little heart of you was as big as the dawn itself over the wide hills. This was shown by your spontaneous impulse to rush in and kiss me good night. Nothing else matters tonight, son. I have come to your bedside in the darkness, and I have knelt there, ashamed!
It is a feeble atonement; I know you would not understand these things if I told them to you during your waking hours. But tomorrow I will be a real daddy! I will chum with you, and suffer when you suffer, and laugh when you laugh. I will bite my tongue when impatient words come. I will keep saying as if it were a ritual: ‘He is nothing but a boy – a little boy!’
I am afraid I have visualized you as a man. Yet as I see you now, son, crumpled and weary in your cot, I see that you are still a baby. Yesterday you were in your mother’s arms, your head on her shoulder. I have asked too much, too much.
- W. Livingston Larned
Peace,
Shane
Shane
This is a gorgeous verse, and it's often how we see life, when we are too stressed with trying to be perfect, and we have to reach all these goals and milestones. I think that life should be about having enough time to smell the roses along the way and just to be!! Remember this Lynn when you are struggling for the perfect balance of work and play and getting your body back into shape with stopping smoking.
Shane...
wow...I can resonate as I have a Grandchild (I'm a young GrandDad by marriage)..and she was recently over (she's 5) and my wife was reprimanding her a lot about painting and getting messy...but as your verse shows...she's only 5 for gosh sake. She came to me after I chimed in, I pulled her to me and gave her a big hug and tried to explain how to get better at playing and making those here at the house happy with her showing up.. She had tears in her eyes, and I realized that she is a little girl and just doesn't know better yet. Great timing to read this poem/story. GREAT post.
Congrats, Lynn! Keep up the great work. Thanks for sharing this with us. Your post made me put down the cookie (we all have our own version of bad habits.) This post has motivated me to stop "thinking with my mouth!"
Also, that was really smart of you to quit before vacation. The change of scenery/environment can help.
Peace,
Roey.
Lynn, Thanks for the update! Glad you had a great vacation, and glad to hear that you are back hard at work. Keep your head up and keep taking incredible risks!
Congratulations! On quitting smoking, I am trying to quit right now and it has been 2 weeks. I get motivation on hearing people quitting themselves. I am really happy to hear that you doubled your income and are looking for church groups.
Lynn, thanks for sharing your struggle as you seek to live on purpose and also find balance in your life and work!
Lynn:
Overall the comments here have been very supportive. You have a great community of people that truly care for you.
I know that it is hard to share our struggles. I hope that you are able to draw strength from all the supportive words above.
I could write a long response here but a lot has already been said. So with that I just wabt to say Good Luck!
- Rick
Keep the patch thing going . . and get a new vet!
Hugs from Judy and Paddington (the Bichon Frise)
Hi Lynn.
The changes you have made in the last 6 months are striking, and substantial. Psychologically speaking, although very positive, this kind of life shift in such a short period is actually very stressful!
I've had multiple people very close to me who had a lifetime smoking habit. From them I have learned several *very* important things.
First, is that smoking was often the greatest, or among the greatest, challenges they ever encountered.
The next thing I learned is that smoking a very emotional habit. To the extent that we form great dependencies around it - it becomes ingrained into our belief system as something we need to cope with our challenges, both seen and unseen. This means the habit itself is vastly more powerful than the physical addiction to nicotine. The brain literally patterns itself around the idea that there will always be immediate (false) relief to any form of stress.
The final thing I learned was that, as much as they wanted to quit (or stay free), they were also at conflict. This 'slight of will' seemed to result from their not being sure they were 'worth' enough to be free of the habit. Like they deserved to keep smoking for some false wrong they had committed. It was not pleasant to witness this struggle. But what it meant to me was that their greatest barrier to staying free was maintaining true confidence in themselves! Even in the event that there was no noticeable problem to anybody else.
And therein was the challenge. They struggled with a lifetime of belief that they must essentially 'self medicate' because they weren't good enough to handle life.
This is, of course, totally false. As free beings of this earth, we're all here for a single primary purpose - to enjoy happiness. Nothing else matters in comparison. No societally constructed moral system, no emotional stimulus which inspires guilt or fear, no measurement of productivity or genetic characteristics falsely representing self worth.
I like to think as long as I keep that in mind, as long as I am able to belief that (which I know is true), no challenge is to great for me to overcome. And I absolutely believe the same is true for you, and everyone else struggling for any form of happiness.
Btw, you may find this 'Emotional Freedom Technique' useful from Dr Mercola. He's an amazing person, I've subscribed for years. http://www.mercola.com/nutritionplan/advanced_lifestyle_changes.htm
And btw, I really wish WordPress incorporated comment editing. My grammer was terrible in that reply. lol!
Congratulations Lynn,
It's really not difficult to quit. It's the staying quit that's difficult.
Unsolicited Advice: Get yourself a sack of suger free suckers (like Kojack). Hang in there and best wishes.
mb
Great job on quitting smoking! I quit nearly 15 years ago, and have to say it's one of the smartest moves I ever made. Now, if I could just quit drinking the sodas...
Lynn,
Congrats. I know it is super hard, but as someone who lost their Mom at age 59, I can truly say your kids will appreciate having their Mom around longer. You can do this. Hang in there. I'll be praying for ya (cause it is tough).
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Suffering Lynn withdrawal. Ack!!
Hang in there, we're with you. 🙂
Dan
Dan